The Paradoxical Nature of Love

When we do something for those that we love, they might respond, “Why did you do that for me?” When we don’t do something for those that we love, they might respond, “Why didn’t you do that for me?” When you are surrounded by those who love you, you will find those that are there when you want them to be, but more importantly, they will be there even when you don’t. This is the paradoxical nature of love.

Should Cartography be Invisible?

A few years ago, I came across this fascinating insights from a cartographer, discussing Google’s (then) immense lead as compared to Apple Maps. When Apple Maps was first released, it was a laughing stock of the cartography community because of just how bad it’s accuracy was. Over the years, Apple has been hard at work updating their maps, but Google has been no slouch. In fact, Google has made significant strides as well.

These few deep dives are an inside look into the world of cartography. As a user of maps for all sorts of navigation and planning purposes, including for aviation, I was genuinely surprised about the incredible extent to which maps affect our understanding of the world around us. Each product gives a different interpretation.

And that includes the raw experience of just flying over the world in a plane—no labels anywhere to be seen. Just the beauty of the Earth and the impacts of humanity.


“Google Maps’s Moat,” by Justin O’Beirne, 2017.

“Apple’s New Map,” by Justin O’Beirne, 2017.

Community in Education

Over the past few years, I have had the privilege to be surrounded by amazing, intelligent, and caring people. Nowhere was that more true than at Mass Academy, a small haven for those who took pleasure in exploring the inner workings of the world and the universe.

I’ve learned a few things from the experience of being surrounded by so many accomplished individuals. There are times when inklings of inadequacy spread like the flu. But with no symptoms, that feeling is invisible and internal. Nor is it unique—every single student feels the same, just in their own different way. The cure for this sickness is, in a way, quite simple. Yet the simple things can often be the most challenging to achieve in practice.

You need to be able to detach your own self-worth from that feeling of inadequacy, lest it become a dangerous, self-fulfilling prophecy. Solace doesn’t have to come from sheer willpower, but rather from community. Take part in it, for it transforms strangers into friends.

Today, elite institutions have come in to societal scrutiny for creating a modern version of dynastic inheritance. Certainly some of that scrutiny is deserved, as argued by Daniel Markovits in The Meritocracy Trap. The most subversive aspect of meritocracy as an institution, is that no one can argue that those very people did not work hard to get where they were. It’s just that they started with a number of advantages.

And so Mass Academy stands in a unique position. While its foundations share the same cement of meritocracy, it draws its water from a much purer source: its nature as a small and academically challenging public institution acts as a filter to bring only those with sincere dedication. The casting of such a wide net invites diversity of values scarcely found in other elite and therefore, wealthy institutions. One decisive consequence of this is that Mass Academy is, at heart, not competitive, but rather collaborative. The community it fosters is strangely harmonic, despite its disparate notes.

But that is slowly changing. In my conversation with a more recent student, also coming from St. John’s, he lamented at the insatiable desire for Mass Academy students to focus on grades and test scores, and very little else. This saddens me greatly, because Mass Academy is the perfect place to explore and grow. The school has an amazing opportunity, therefore, to open other avenues of character development through the arts.

I hope that Mass Academy doesn’t become a bubble, sucked into the measured accomplishments of the elite. It currently stands outside those measures, and I hope that it continues to produce students devoid of the darkness that such measures often imbue.

One critique I do have of Mass Academy is that well-roundedness, and character development, is often easily overlooked. With careful thought, Mass Academy can achieve the delicate balance of cultivating exceptional students in the scientific disciplines, as well as provide a breadth of experiences that develop the moral character of its students. It’s not there yet, but in my mind, that is its ultimate purpose.

I envision a day where the student that Mass Academy releases into the world is akin to the age-old ideal of the Renaissance Man. However, even that analogy is a bit limiting⁠—the level of knowledge expected back then was far below what we now consider expertise. However, today, expertise isn’t all that necessary for a new generation of leaders. Rather being at the intersection of disciplines is what produces innovators in the modern world. Therefore I think that Mass Academy is perfectly position to produce such innovators.

I then expect it to bring in students from outside its traditional mathematics and science background; to cultivate a sense that breadth of understanding is today just as important as depth of understanding.

And while it can be argued either way whether or not Mass Academy counts as an “elite institution,” as defined by wealth and modern intellectual dynastic transmission, there is no doubt that colleges and universities are much easier to fit into the traditional descriptions.

Unfortunately, with each passing day, it becomes more and more impossible to escape the grasp of meritocratic hyper-competition. Even individualistic resolve to not become entrapped is met with resistance: “To be a parent is to be compromised. You pledge allegiance to justice for all, you swear that private attachments can rhyme with the public good, but when the choice comes down to your child or an abstraction—even the well-being of children you don’t know—you’ll betray your principles to the fierce unfairness of love.” As George Parker succinctly demonstrates, these mechanisms are self-reinforcing.

Elite ideals, as Elizabeth Currid-Halkett explains, “may seem completely innocent—perhaps even enlightened. Yet, as we discuss here, they simultaneously shore up inequality, erode social mobility, and create an ever-more stratified society—all without most of us noticing. This is a conversation that implicates us all, and, for that very reason, it is well worth addressing.”

And so the entirety of education begins to seem as simply an avenue into continued elite segregation, not by heritage or wealth, but by “merit.” Is that really any different?

From The Wall Street Journal’s article:

“The College Board plans to assign an adversity score to every student who takes the SAT to try to capture their social and economic background, jumping into the debate raging over race and class in college admissions.”

To be honest, I’m not entirely sure what difference the adversity score will make to college admissions. Certainly admissions processes have improved over the years (as argued by Markovits), but much remains to be done (as evidenced by the recent admissions scandals and lawsuits). At the same time, the score disparity has hardly been overcome, and in fact, only been amplified in recent years.

The differences in adversity scores for Mass Academy, Saint John’s, and Shrewsbury High, are non-trivial. But they don’t mean much in this context. Rather meaning is gleamed only by comparison across large gaps, where large-scale policy can make a difference.

Nonetheless, I am glad that I went to public school for my early education, then Catholic school for the first two years of high school, and then to Mass Academy for my final years of high school. It exposed me to an immense continuum of culture, and it made me deeply appreciate my background and upbringing in the intersection of so many cultures.

I know that this post was pulled in a few different directions, but ultimately, my point is simple: wherever you are, create a true community from the group of people you are surrounded by.


“When the Culture War Comes for the Kids,” by George Packer, October 2019.

“SAT to Give Students ‘Adversity Score’ to Capture Social and Economic Background,” by Douglas Belkin, May 16, 2019.

“What Happens if SAT Scores Consider Adversity? Find Your School,” by Douglas Belkin, November 16, 2019.

“The Meritocracy Trap,” by Daniel Markovits, September 10, 2019.

“How Whole Foods, yoga, and NPR became the hallmarks of the modern elite,” by Ezra Klein, November 14, 2019.

“The subtle ways colleges discriminate against poor students, explained with a cartoon,” by Alvin Chang, September 12, 2018.

Is Writing a Chore?

Writing each one of these posts always ends up taking quite a bit longer than I expect. Initially, I saw that time as sort of a chore; something that, despite wanting to get it done, still felt like a big homework assignment. Perhaps the reason for that was partly human nature; I want the content to be not just good, but exceptional. Instead, that philosophy of perfectionism was holding me back from writing freely. Once I realized that, I forced myself to push through and continue to write something, anything really, and consistently. I now see this as an exercise, not of physical ability, but of writing and thinking ability.

My goal was to begin anew, to experiment with language and communication, learn more about my own style and habits, and ultimately, become a better communicator. In pursuing this goal, I realized that it is more valuable to forgo perfection in favor of just getting some thoughts on the page.

What greater pain is there but for the wonderous thoughts that so wander about to flutter into oblivion the very moment they are conjured.

How Writing Encourages Creativity

Once the thoughts are captured from the ether, the purpose of writing shifts. It becomes to develop those thoughts, to consider alternative viewpoints, and to engage in community discussion. Therefore, writing serves two purposes: (1) capturing the thoughts, and (2) forging them into something more than just scribbles on a page or bits in memory.

As I’ve done more and more of this, it has become easier and easier to continue to write; and that’s not necessarily because I’ve become better. Rather my perspective has shifted: I allow my thoughts to develop as I write.

It took me a long time to understand that writing could be a practical step rather than simply an artistic or journalistic one. Take it from George Saunders: You are a plumber when you write. A handyman. Writing is a matter of sketching and building and arranging and fixing what is in your brain.

Drew Magary

Writing here is now an outlet that allows me to deeply consider the viewpoints of others. It continues to make me cognizant of the world around me; aware that a solitary perch no longer adds value to society, nor builds better character.

Deeper engagement with the community is therefore invaluable. Often, I may think of something, but when I sit down to catch those fleeting moments of thought, and release them onto the page, I realize that the other viewpoints may qualify the original argument. That process ensures that they are embedded in the context of the surrounding society and culture. The purpose changes once more, from capturing those fleeting moments of thought, to further developing them, and finally, to refining them in the foundry of discussion.


“How to Write 10,000 Words a Week,” by Drew Magary, January 24, 2020.

Is 90 Days Too Little or Too Much?

When I wrote my original piece discussing the prescription policy of the free clinics, my primary concern was for patients without adequate access to transportation. I argued for increased scrutiny into the policy because these patients might have been better served with longer supplies of prescriptions. Ultimately, I suggested that implementing better collaboration between the clinics would be a great first step to addressing the larger issue.

In that piece, I did mention the potential for prescription abuse. One form, I explained, was that “patients can game the system, traveling from clinic to clinic to obtain duplicate prescriptions.” While this was not backed up by any specific examples, it was based on anecdotal evidence from my conversations with the clinic leaders and other medical professionals at the clinics.

One form of prescription abuse that I overlooked is the risk of suicide or overdose due to an excessive amount of prescriptions. This is particularly true with psychiatric medications where patients are already at heightened risk. Brian Barnett, in his piece, “The 90-Day Prescription Isn’t for Everyone,” provides a succinct rebuttal to the idea that patients should be given longer supplies of prescriptions, emphasizing that “psychiatric drugs play an outsize role in intentional overdoses.” Therefore, like in the free clinics, he explains that “prescribing conservative quantities to these patients is standard practice” (Barnett 2019).

Do the free clinics follow this same ideology? I wanted to investigate this issue and determine if there is a difference in the number of days of medication given out for psychiatric prescriptions versus others at the Epworth Free Medical Program.

For each instance of a psychiatric prescription between 2014 and 2019, the daily intake of pills, number of pills, and number of refills was recorded. The total daily supply was calculated by dividing the number of pills by the daily intake and multiplying by one more than the number of refills. This resulted in a new metric describing the total number of days of medication prescribed to patients.

total_supply = num_pills / daily_intake * (num_refills + 1)

These calculations showed that, on average, providers prescribed 42.9 days worth of psychiatric medication to patients. The breakdown of days by prescription is shown below.

In the future, it would provide an immense benefit to analyze the data in greater detail. For example, we can examine “at risk” patients, defined as having a chief complaint of psychiatric nature or diagnosis of psychiatric nature.

I think this issue warrants extensive discussion to determine the best practice for the free clinics. Maybe the policy currently in place is already the best practice in consideration of these points and those I raised in the earlier piece.

At the end of the day, the general consensus amongst the physicians and providers at the free clinics is that patients should not be given more than 90 days worth of prescriptions. Ultimately, patients should follow up to review their prescriptions, get additional treatment, or get a primary care provider. This should be made easier for patients struggling with transportation Potentially, the clinics can help subsidize a mail pharmacy so patients in need can get their prescriptions through the mail, don’t have to keep picking up new ones, and get only a limited quantity at once.

Note: the fully anonymized data is obtained from an IRB-approved research project at Worcester Polytechnic Institute, under the direction of Brenton Faber, PhD.


“The 90-Day Prescription Isn’t for Everyone,” by Brian Barnett, February 6, 2020.

“Prescriptions and Policy in the Free Clinics,” by Sahil Nawab, December 30, 2019.

“Top 25 Psychiatric Medications for 2016,” by John Grohol, July 8, 2018.

Prescriptions and Policy in the Free Clinics

Note: This article was originally published as part of the Q4 2019 issue of the WFCC Newsletter and is reproduced here with permission. See original:

Part of human nature is to make assumptions about others. This cognitive heuristic, while somewhat valuable in the past, now simply perpetuates ideals that are no longer relevant to modern society. When analyzed from the collective perspective, that is, by looking at systematic prejudices in institutions and professions, we can begin to tease out the less visible, but often more subversive prejudices that impact people at the population scale. This is particularly true in medicine, where the impacts of these institutional assumptions disproportionately harm those who we seek to help in the free clinics.

In this piece, I want to examine the prescription policies in place at the free clinics and invite discussion about the various factors in play. With that said, this is only a first step in addressing this complex issue rife with nuance. No amount of standardization can remove the necessary professional judgement of physicians and healthcare providers, but this may be an area where healthcare policy can make a tangible impact in patient care for the uninsured patient population in greater Worcester area.

The standard protocol encourages providers to prescribe the minimum necessary amount of medication. In practice, this often results in common chronic disease prescriptions being written for 30 days during the first visit, bumped up to 60 days on a following visit, and a maximum of 90 days on all subsequent visits. This procedure is grounded in real concerns – most prominently the potential for prescription abuse. However, it leaves the most vulnerable patients in limbo.

Uninsured or underinsured patients suffering from chronic diseases, such as diabetes or hypertension, are often the ones that have the most challenges associated with physically accessing prescriptions. Lack of transportation and difficulty taking time off from work during working hours are primary contributors to patients skipping their medications, along with insufficient funds to cover the prescriptions. These diverse issues cannot be solved without a large scale political effort and potentially restructuring the entire employment scheme. Regardless, being aware of these fundamental issues is vital to effective policy proposals on the part of the Coalition and the individual clinics.

Providers are rightly concerned that patients can game the system, traveling from clinic to clinic to obtain duplicate prescriptions, especially in light of the opioid epidemic. Despite this, a more benign, yet potentially even more subversive justification for the policy is the idea that the clinics are simply stop-gap measures rather than primary care facilities and provide care to any person without question.

On the face of it, the answer is simple: the clinics are not, in fact, primary care facilities. A better analogy might be that of urgent care centers, but even this falls apart because the clinics do not have the staff, equipment, or funding to address more serious illnesses. The clinics are simply not equipped to provide the long term, personal care that is required of a primary care facility, nor are they equipped to provide immediate care for the types of injuries and illnesses that urgent care centers treat. Patients inevitably still end up using the clinics for both primary care and urgent care.

Keeping in mind these conflicting messages, that the clinics provide care to anyone without question, and that they are neither primary nor urgent care facilities, updates to the standard operating procedures need to be made to better address the dichotomy. Without these changes, patients will remain in limbo, especially those looking for long term prescriptions for chronic illnesses.

Currently, 28.2% of patient encounters at Epworth result in the patient receiving one or more written prescriptions. A full 10.1% of patients arrive at Epworth seeking prescription refills. Providing prescriptions that take into account patient transportation challenges may be addressed by, for example, encouraging prescribing physicians to ask patients about the accessibility of prescriptions.

Another suggestion might include updating the standard operating procedures at the clinics to enable cross referencing of prescriptions, especially for some medications that are more prone to abuse. This does not reduce the importance of professional judgement, but rather reduces biases and provides objective measures that can ultimately lead to better patient care. An even more ambitious solution, but one that might address a larger range of the issues that the uninsured and underinsured population faces, is creating a mobile pharmacy that travels to each of the clinics. Patients can pick up their subsidized prescriptions immediately, while they are already at the clinic without need of further coordination. Even just having pharmacists available to discuss prescriptions during sign out may be immensely helpful to get patients to understand complex medications, their side effects, the proper time frame to take them, and answer any lingering questions.

Coordinating between the multiple bastions of healthcare falls more and more on the patient. Rather than institutions playing this vital role, increasingly patients are responsible for making the phone calls to get prescriptions, understand the side effects, and ensure that they can afford the medication.

This makes a strong case for increased collaboration between the clinics, especially for prescriptions that have higher potential for abuse. Yet while the proposal for a system-wide EMR has yet to gain the full support of the Coalition for a variety of reasons, significant strides have been made thus far in bringing the individual clinics together. Careful policy that balances these multiple factors, on the part of the WFCC and individual clinics, can help defray the costs associated with being uninsured or underinsured in the greater Worcester area.


“Unpaid, stressed, and confused: patients are the health care system’s free labor,” by Sarah Kliff, June 1, 2016.

This article describes “the considerable burden our fragmented system puts on patients to coordinate their own care,” and how the challenges associated with dealing with multiple systems in person and over the phone to get prescriptions can be akin to a part-time job.

When Clear Writing Really Matters

I know that this is certainly quite late — I had saved this article a few months back and am only now getting to writing about it. Nonetheless, I think it is valuable enough to warrant another look.

When the report, and Rozenweig’s ensuing article, first came out, it reminded me of the importance of brevity and directness. In science writing, conciseness and clarity are prized. However, in the pursuit of objectivity, we often use the third-person passive voice, and this style has deeply impacted my own writing. I now resolve to use more active verbs to provide narrative and agency to the words on the page and to show responsibility of actions.

On a whim, I took a class about teaching writing, and it taught me quite a bit about the pedagogical philosophy of college-level writing instructors around the world. In particular, I developed my own ideas about what writing is supposed to be, what purposes it is supposed to serve, and how my own particular style of writing fits in amidst a great variety of different forms of communication.

This class was invaluable, and I encourage anyone who has the chance to take such an opportunity because, “some day they may have something to say that really matters to them and possibly to the world — and they will want to convey it when the moment arrives in writing that’s clear and concise” (Rosenzweig 2019).


“The Whistle-Blower Knows How to Write,” by Jane Rosenzweig, September 27, 2019.

The Pioneering Spirit of General Aviation in the US

The rich legacy of aviation in the United States, from the first flight of the Wright brothers’ plane through to modern commercial jet airliners, has allowed the United States to develop the most widely dispersed general aviation infrastructure in the world. With that, comes the freedom of flight.

Let’s keep this pioneering spirit alive.


MIT Ground School, by Philip Greenspun, January 6, 2020.